Normadic Mind

Understandig woman...

I just dont know how they feel or well I will never will. I had now understand why there are some blokes who commented "No point in treating your girlfriend nice, she wont appreiciate it"

Well.. I try out many ways since knowing her providing her what I can or what I think it will be good for her. But last night, her comments does hurt me or just make me wanted to scold her, I had never scolded her since our relationship. Just a grumpy tone to make my unhappiness known to her. Does this sound like I am a bad boyfriend?

Her comments could be causal, well indication of my past actions leads to another motive. This creates upset within me. I dont know why, maybe this only happens when now I am treating her better than nice. I took her to dine at the Peak and company her over the weekend as her work is taking a toll on her happiness. I dont mind the effort in securing a table nearest to the view, the time I took to look for a nice restaurant. I just want her to feel happy but now, she looks into me with a untrusted feeling... I could not be certain that my future actions are appreciated at all since she had this thinking already in her mind. The worst situation is I do not know why she said things that are 100% different with last evening stating appreciation of my kindness or work given to her but last night...all such actions are leading to a motive...

I really dont know... not sure if I should continue to treat her nice...at all...
Or she already had another person who treating her better than I do. Normally, I have this thinking..comparsions are made when you had experienced 2 samples so now she is comparing..me with... I dont know ...

Maybe all my efforts are marginal compared to others but that is what I can provide and afford at this moment. I dont know ... i dont know...

posted by Quinn @ 11:53 AM 0 comments

It had been year ..almost a year since I had updated this blog.

I guess I had move on and decided to write less about my life. But then why do I start again? I guess blog is a channel for me to put my tiny little voice out when the whole world do not really give me a damn.

Well I am now on to the 7th month of my job. Not a very prospecting job if you consider but maybe I had never been in a company for a year plus to see the well reward they give to their overworked slaves.

Aniwei my company is this, it is a small company but pretend to be a big organisation. Wow..where my senior is in a total mind of his own, why did I comment that? Let see.. he will enter an arguement and not based on the point or the topic but to fulfill his big ego of senior --> must force other people thinking. I had begin to see what other see of him as a fact... closet mugger...well not that term but I can only quote in a closest manner. Search and molest everyone's knowledge into his own little brain and do not share his to us.. WOW... Kiddish behavior.

Oh my new manager... his favorite is seeking results on a daily basis and well do like to ask people to perform this and that... and also seeking ownership of things ..aniwei I dont really give much a thought about that... simply a idiot who does not want to get his hands dirty but will without hesitation ask other to do it..

Oh my chief..stubborn crazy woman who always had a mind of her own. I am not sure but it seen that middle aged people are always have a fixed mindset and unable to listen to opinion. Well..simple..follow her way... she prefer ABC...she will get ABC..

Nevertheless, I am still happy to know good colleagues who are of the same level as me.. we are together and well happy..

Oh .. one more thing, my japanese classmates.. they are as lovely as ever... lucky to have them as my friends...

Weekend.. shall not think of work... screw it...

posted by Quinn @ 10:02 PM 0 comments