Normadic Mind

Well its been months since I had the mood or the impluse to write on this blog again.It seems that this blog had its other uses for me...a place for me to voice out my feelings when I think it is unconstructive to do so in the open or to others who well I dont want to say much to.

I had once again made the mistake which a nice scolding was provisioned by my girlfriend. I understand I had fuck up in her synchronisation of data from one PDA to another PDA, well I had heeled to her earlier complains and asked her times that if the PDAs that going to have a hard-reset had any important data... she will say no or a hesitant no... Well I think the most simple solution to all these problem is STOP her from using all other PDA phones which I had given to her.. the 3 of them and ask her to use only one for better or for worst... give nothing unless she agree to it ... sigh ...

Boy she is going to china tomorrow .... happiness... sometimes ...woman well dont touch her stuff and not to help her in anythings..

posted by Quinn @ 12:22 AM 0 comments

Understandig woman...

I just dont know how they feel or well I will never will. I had now understand why there are some blokes who commented "No point in treating your girlfriend nice, she wont appreiciate it"

Well.. I try out many ways since knowing her providing her what I can or what I think it will be good for her. But last night, her comments does hurt me or just make me wanted to scold her, I had never scolded her since our relationship. Just a grumpy tone to make my unhappiness known to her. Does this sound like I am a bad boyfriend?

Her comments could be causal, well indication of my past actions leads to another motive. This creates upset within me. I dont know why, maybe this only happens when now I am treating her better than nice. I took her to dine at the Peak and company her over the weekend as her work is taking a toll on her happiness. I dont mind the effort in securing a table nearest to the view, the time I took to look for a nice restaurant. I just want her to feel happy but now, she looks into me with a untrusted feeling... I could not be certain that my future actions are appreciated at all since she had this thinking already in her mind. The worst situation is I do not know why she said things that are 100% different with last evening stating appreciation of my kindness or work given to her but last night...all such actions are leading to a motive...

I really dont know... not sure if I should continue to treat her nice...at all...
Or she already had another person who treating her better than I do. Normally, I have this thinking..comparsions are made when you had experienced 2 samples so now she is comparing..me with... I dont know ...

Maybe all my efforts are marginal compared to others but that is what I can provide and afford at this moment. I dont know ... i dont know...

posted by Quinn @ 11:53 AM 0 comments

It had been year ..almost a year since I had updated this blog.

I guess I had move on and decided to write less about my life. But then why do I start again? I guess blog is a channel for me to put my tiny little voice out when the whole world do not really give me a damn.

Well I am now on to the 7th month of my job. Not a very prospecting job if you consider but maybe I had never been in a company for a year plus to see the well reward they give to their overworked slaves.

Aniwei my company is this, it is a small company but pretend to be a big organisation. Wow..where my senior is in a total mind of his own, why did I comment that? Let see.. he will enter an arguement and not based on the point or the topic but to fulfill his big ego of senior --> must force other people thinking. I had begin to see what other see of him as a fact... closet mugger...well not that term but I can only quote in a closest manner. Search and molest everyone's knowledge into his own little brain and do not share his to us.. WOW... Kiddish behavior.

Oh my new manager... his favorite is seeking results on a daily basis and well do like to ask people to perform this and that... and also seeking ownership of things ..aniwei I dont really give much a thought about that... simply a idiot who does not want to get his hands dirty but will without hesitation ask other to do it..

Oh my chief..stubborn crazy woman who always had a mind of her own. I am not sure but it seen that middle aged people are always have a fixed mindset and unable to listen to opinion. Well..simple..follow her way... she prefer ABC...she will get ABC..

Nevertheless, I am still happy to know good colleagues who are of the same level as me.. we are together and well happy..

Oh .. one more thing, my japanese classmates.. they are as lovely as ever... lucky to have them as my friends...

Weekend.. shall not think of work... screw it...

posted by Quinn @ 10:02 PM 0 comments

Well its sunday and i will be going to manila for the week... I am not looking forward to it but i felt that i must be professional to perform with that little bit left in me, i will continue and put a grand show in it. man.... Inputing these words on a mobile handheld does make some pain out of me

posted by Quinn @ 6:41 PM 0 comments

Changes... ... well undergoing a major change in my life or a major blow had landed upon me. I have to decided which path to go. I am tired and felt all my efforts are wasted. I am feeling that my career are in ruins.. I need to pick up and restart my goal and objective.

This round was not part of my fault .. something I must remember and walk down the path.Saturday is super cool as I managed to go for my japanese class and the class and me went for a simple japanese lunch. well 9 girls and me... haahaaa.. felt that I am the luckiest bloke in the world ?

well the sudden downpour does dampened my mood and I returned home early for a dinner DIY style... simple dishes but does make a simple man satisfied.Tomorrow packing up for a trip to manila...going to end my road trip... a finale... a last path ...

posted by Quinn @ 12:54 AM 0 comments

Well did not go to work today as I had this rash on my elbow ... rested well and also managed to drag my body to Admirality to get my HK license. Today weather is hot, steamy ... stuffy.. I could get myself kill by staying out for a while...

So in the end I was at home in the late afternoon till dinner time..went to aunt's house for meal..and now at home...under the comfort of air-con and being a part in warming up the earth by all those emission..oh well I cant care.. for now ...

posted by Quinn @ 11:00 PM 0 comments

Oh... my house does look cleaner and tidy. I had been cleaning it over the weekends, it does deserve a good clean as I was not in HK for the past weekends.

Maybe it is the heat that drove so many people to shopping malls today, I was in shatin and it is totally totally pack with mobs of familes having fun... but it's nice to see them having fun.

I begin to think that I like the feeling of tidness and also clean.. I like to have my clothes ironed and also clean the house.. am I getting strange?

I am uncertain but maybe this house is becoming a part of me ... I am now the keeper of this little realm of mine. So I must uphold to my liking.. by making it nice and livable ...

posted by Quinn @ 12:21 AM 0 comments

Sunday.... day of rest and peace...

Roll down to Harbour City to view the new ..enlongated...stretched..extended...new mini ..quite interesting...

One thing that is unbearable is the heat...gosh.. 34+ degrees under the HK urban environment... I could melt any minute under such situations.

Dinner was alright as I bought it from downstairs and was too involved with my work..

Looking back... I wish there were happier times... maybe a photo will remind me and make me simile....

posted by Quinn @ 11:57 PM 0 comments

Saturday... it's a very utilized day... woke up early to rush for my class but ended up in the jam. I was only 10minutes late but still the class is alright. Got to know that we are having a japanese lunch after class next week.. Yuppie and also , my dance is cancelled next week so I can go for the lunch and not miss dance.

During the first 15minutes of dance I was very happy and able to perform the move with very good pecision but then ... suddenly my mind was filled with other things that I lost it totally ... I had been feeling it for sometime but not this time... so deep and unable to concentrate on my dance.. I felt sad about this and want to leave early but I cant , its very unprofessional to end your move like that based on your personal emotions... I got to bear with it .

I went to visit my aunt and it was the most unbearable thing it could happen to us... the sign of her radiotherapy had shown. She had lost most of her hair and I was just feeling hard not to shed a single tear and be happy infront of her. She could not know what happen due to her mental awarness but still I felt very emotional for her.

I guess I had get used to visit her on a weekly basis as she is after all my aunt and now I do feel the need to .. It is very traumatized by it... sigh .... why her..I going to work tomorrow morning and go out for a while in the afternoon to TST and later be at home ... I must be strong...

posted by Quinn @ 1:42 AM 0 comments

Well... July..I had been thinking ... what I had done over this month?

well nothing much but the trip back to Singapore does make me feel happier as I am able to see my family and friends. I am now having a wonderfulous time in my Japanese class as I am able to bend into them as they are super friendly ... I decided to treat them nicely..

Looking back... a year ago, I was still in service in my blue uniform and seeing airplane taking off and landing.. but now I am at another place where to them National Service only happens in Taiwan. Well I guess this is another milestone that I managed to achieved. Did I brave the rain and storm? I am uncertain as so far things are still going quite smoothly..

I had fallen and also stand up and walk again, I know there are times where I am really sad thinking of the past memories of me and her but still I got to move ... I do hope she will have someone nice to look after her but still I guess she is now old enough to decide what is of the best interest for her.

Tomorrow I will be going for my dance and japanese lessons, maybe a trip to visit my aunt will round things up nicely. I guess from now on... walking alone and standing tall is something I must get used to ... Life must go on....

posted by Quinn @ 1:35 AM 0 comments